Thank you for protecting my entire family and keeping us safe and healthy.
Your love is more than abundant!
That's My King!
Kim
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
2009
This year has been a rough year, but if this year is the worst year of my life, I don't think it has been too bad! Thank you Jesus for my family, friends, and your faithfulness.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Waking Up
As I woke up this morning, I heard God speaking to me. He told me that I will have babies. This was very odd for me because I've never heard God speaking to me like this before. So, I enjoyed waking up this morning.
That's my King!
Kimmie
"Awake" ~ Skillet (Rock Song)
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Empty Arms
I passed my book on recently to the most loveliest, beautiful lady. My heart breaks for her because it's hard to understand how this can happen to the sweetest of ladies.
However, I'm not worried. I'm believing she'll have a BIG belly soon! God's GRACE is so Good!
Expect the Unexpected
I heard once that if you wanted to make God laugh, you should make plans. Well, I think I keep God laughing! I'm a planner, but now things are so confusing, and I don't see how all the puzzle pieces will ever fit together........However, I know they do!
When I first went to get my blood tested, my hcg level was 44. Two days later it was 72. It didn't exactly double. Then, four days later it was 106.
At this point, they believed that I was having an ectopic pregnancy. Oddly this confirmed fears I had been having based on symptoms I had read on the Internet. BTW: I will make a post about how I am quitting my addiction to the Internet soon!!! I immediately began to pray and ask many others to pray too because the nurse told me that I would probably lose a tube by the end of the week. Waiting to take another test two days later was very hard. I cringed with nervousness, and I could not relax. When the results were given to me, I was told that my hcg level was 52. They said that this was consistent with a miscarriage - chemical pregnancy.
So, I don't know if I had an ectopic or chemcial pregnancy, but I do know that God is taking care of me and that he took care of the situation.
Oddly, I did feel a great sense of relief. I was almost excited. God answered my prayers! I know that sounds bad, but I truly did not want to lose a tube even though I know many women who have had many babies with just one tube. That just wasn't the desire of my heart.
And even though I feared I would lose my tube, I did feel that God told me from the beginning of that ride of emotions that I would not lose a tube.
I wish I could just hear God's voice and run with it, instead of worrying still. I know worrying does not add one single day to my life!!!!
My principal told me that I could tell all the people in the world to pray, but that didn't matter if I didn't have Faith! And, she's RIGHT! I know that, but I'm still crazy. It's like I'm begging God to give me Faith like a mustard seed. I can't just have it - I have to beg for it! Why is that? I need to have more FAITH! So, I'm going to go buy books on the subject. Isn't that bad? It's like I'm saying let's buy some Faith! I almost feel like Faith is a gift. As a matter of fact, I think I read that the other day.
Dear Lord,
Give me the gift of FAITH.
Your lovely daughter,
Kimberly.
Well, now I'm sad and confused. I hate to think about WHY this happened. Every answer that runs through my head is disappointing. Also, I'm not about to go looking for solutions on the Internet. I'm trying to quit that addiction - remember?
Also, I'm just sad. I can't figure out this puzzle. Right now it just seems like what's right for me, isn't right to God. Or, is what's right to me right for God? That would mean that it would be a lot longer before I get pregnant again. I don't know! I can't wrap my mind around it!
But, I do know that God knows what's best. And, I seem to think God wants me to expect the unexpected. So, is God going to work everything out according to His riches and glory? Of course!!!
That's my King!
Love,
Kim
"More than Enough" ~ Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir
FYI: My post from September 12th, was written when I began to have fears that something was wrong, and I was trying to have Faith! There's nothing wrong with that, but I'm going to keep working on it! "He's still working on me!"
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Oh My Goodness!
Sound the Alarm
Sound the Alarm! I'm GOING to have FAITH! That's my PROCLAMATION!
I made up this song as a prayer.
May I bring this baby joy.
May I bring this baby peace.
Make us whole, and make us new.
May we glorify you.
I made this up today because this is what I need.
I MUST bring my baby JOY and PEACE with NO worries! I know this!
I want God to restore me and make me whole. At the same time, I want Him to renew me and my baby. For example, if I accidently breathe in smoke from a car or fumes from a cleaning product, I want God to protect my baby and renew me, so I will know that my baby is safe! This will help eliminate stress.
You know, I just didn't think I would be this stressed!
I thought I would be so HAPPY! I am HAPPY, but I'm stressing out over every symptom, the hcg number, and the progesterone number. This has to stop!
I want to be HAPPY!
So, I'm going to "Sound the Alarm" every moment I feel dismay until I know that I know that God is in CONTROL!
As you can tell, I'm full of emotion today.
My goal is to be STRONG! I'm going to carry out God's word. I'm going to "rush on the city and run on the walls" singing God's praises, proclaiming His word, and keeping His faith! That's my goal!
The Trumpet of Zion (This is the best video I could find.)
Okay, God has also given me another song lately to sing.
I've loved this one since I was little.
I LOVE IT!
You are My Hiding Place ~ Selah
Okay, so guess what?
I'm PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!
May the JOY begin!
I'm due May 2010 with a HAPPY, HEALTHY baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JOY! JOY! JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I thank you LORD, I praise You with ALL my heart! You are my EVERYTHING, and You have given me the DESIRE of my heart. May I bless You in everything I do. May my baby and I glorify you beyond our imaginations. Let everyone know that we are STRONG because of You! All glory belongs to You! I'm sounding the alarm. My God is Great! That's my KING!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Doing Better
This next month will be huge for me. I have lots of prayer requests, and I'll be finding out answers soon.
First, will Jamie get a job this school year?
Second, will I be pregnant?
Third, did I pass a huge test I took a few weeks ago?
I have to continually lift up these requests to God. I try not to think about them and leave them in God's hands, but they slowly try to overwhelm my mind and consume my time each day.
I know that things will all work out in a way that's best for me and Jamie.
Luke 10:19
19I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you.
I don't like snakes and scorpions, but I like this scripture. It makes me feel empowered.
Vicki Yohe ~ "My Soul Cries Out"
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Selfish
I should have titled my last post, "I'm selfish." I thought about deleting it, but it was very honest, and some people need honesty. However, it's still selfish.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
I cry.
This is not easy. It never has been.
Today, I'm going to be honest.
I still have pain. I cry often, and I mourn daily. Now, that we are trying again, the pain hits harder each month that I realize I'm not pregnant.
Also, it's hard to hear about other people being pregnant. Yes, I'm happy for them, but I still cry.
I wish I could make the dark cloud of "Why" go away. [Yes, I pray for all the pain to go away, but I still cry!]
Here's the truth.
My beautiful mom has been single for eight years, and she hasn't found Mr. Right! Why? I don't know, but sometimes she cries.
My husband graduated last year and still doesn't have a job. Why? I don't know, but sometimes I think he cries inside.
I'm too impatient to wait on God's perfect time to have a baby. Why? I'm crazy! I know God's time is the right time, but I still cry!!!
So, as you can see, I'm having a hard time right now.
However, this is what I know.
I know people have it a lot harder than me, and I'm being selfish. I know that I should be thankful more for EVERYTHING I do have, but I still cry, and I don't know why.
Dear Jesus,
Please forgive me, and don't let me eat one more calorie loaded thing from my kitchen! Next time I weigh myself, I'll cry!
Amen.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Trying Times
As months go by, I find it harder and harder not to get mad. Each month, I pray I'll get pregnant. With each negative test, I become angrier.
However, here is what I know.
God doesn't want me to get mad. He wants me to enjoy the last few months I have with Jamie where it's just me and Jamie. There is no baby between us. God wants to reignite every flame between us to make us stronger as a couple! This I get!!!
So, I'm going to work on this. It shouldn't be hard!!!
I saw this talented girl on the Oprah show!
"Note to God" ~ Charice
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
It ALL belongs to God
How do you give thanks when you endure great sadness?
About five years ago, I started really tyring to be obedient with my thanks. Through every trial, I did my best to remember to thank God.
There was always something I could give thanks for with each situation. I was able to thank God for giving me the opportunity to grow, learn, trust in him, encourage others, respond according to God's will, and be a blessing in ways I couldn't comprehend.
Why? Everything belongs to God.
The other day someone near me kept saying, "I didn't bring anything in this world, and I'm not taking anything out when I go." I kept wondering why he kept repeating the well known phrase. We all know that - right?
Well, in every situation I do try to give thanks to God because everything does belong to Him.
At the same time, I try to remember that while I'm here on Earth I have a job to do. My job is win others for Jesus Christ.
Here are two songs to bring this message home.
"Yours" ~ Steven Curtis Chapman
"God of This City" ~ Bluetree
1 Chronicles 16:8 (New International Version)
8 Give thanks to the LORD, call on his name;
make known among the nations what he has done.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Mother's Day Update!
Mother's Day was fine. My mother-in-law bought me another journal for my next baby. I don't know when I'll have the next baby, but I trust God!!!
My mom went to the church I grew up in, and some women didn't know I had lost the baby, so Mom was glad I wasn't there. I did fine at Jamie's childhood church. We went there with his mom.
Sowing the Seed 4
Jeremiah 4:3-4 (Amplified Bible)
3For thus says the Lord to the men of Judah and to Jerusalem: Break up your ground left uncultivated for a season, so that you may not sow among thorns.
4 "I will heal their waywardness 5 I will be like the dew to Israel; 6 his young shoots will grow. 7 Men will dwell again in his shade. 8 O Ephraim, what more have I to do with idols? 9 Who is wise? He will realize these things. 11 For as the soil makes the sprout come up God is so faithful to fulfill our needs according to his riches and glory. I'm so thankful God loves me and wants to bless me. Right now, I feel the need to replow the field. I want to make sure every area of my life is ready according to God's will. I'm praying God will show me the areas of my life he wants me to focus on right now. Maybe I need to improve my life in some ways, but maybe I just need to relax in others. Overall, I just want to focus on God and make sure my relationship with God is right where it needs to be at this time. Again, "While I'm Waiting" is an awesome song that I posted a few weeks ago. Growing up, I loved the song "Spring Up, O Well." It's a great song, and it makes me smile! This is a cute version of that song. Hosea 14:4-9 (New International Version)
and love them freely,
for my anger has turned away from them.
he will blossom like a lily.
Like a cedar of Lebanon
he will send down his roots;
His splendor will be like an olive tree,
his fragrance like a cedar of Lebanon.
He will flourish like the grain.
He will blossom like a vine,
and his fame will be like the wine from Lebanon.
I will answer him and care for him.
I am like a green pine tree;
your fruitfulness comes from me."
Who is discerning? He will understand them.
The ways of the LORD are right;
the righteous walk in them,
but the rebellious stumble in them.Isaiah 61:11 (New International Version)
and a garden causes seeds to grow,
so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness and praise
spring up before all nations.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Mother's Day
Kelly from Kelly's Korner posted a great post today. Read number three. It's about supporting Moms who don't have a baby yet.
This is a hard time for me, but I'd rather be a blessing to others.
I agree with Kelly. We should reach out and be a blessing to all women waiting to get married, have a baby, or those who have lost a child.
I pray God blesses you this week. I know it's going to be rough for many of us.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Random Thoughts
Isaiah 41:10 (New International Version)
10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Lately, I have really needed God's support. I have become consumed with random worries. Now, I'm trying to rope 'em all in and give 'em all to God!
I downloaded this song last night. It's awesome. Soak in every word.
"The Motions" ~ Matthew West
I really want to go to a great worship service right now.
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Isaiah 65:24 (New International Version)
24 Before they call I will answer;
while they are still speaking I will hear.
God is always here for me. He knows every desire of my heart.
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It rained today. I couldn't get the song "Washed by the Water" out of my head. It's so nice to know God's love and forgiveness.
Isaiah 55:10 (New International Version)
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
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Last night, I had a dream that I had a baby girl. Here's how crazy it was!
- I put her in my bookbag and went to work!
- She looked like Britney Murphy - nothing like me or Jamie!!!
- I never put her in a car seat!
- I left her in the car, and when I ran out to get her, she had morphed into my dog, Daisy! Please remember this was a DREAM - crazy!!!
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How's that for RANDOM thoughts? I say pretty random!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sick
I've been sick lately. I don't have the swine flu, but I've been sick. What's hard about being sick is that everyone thinks I'm pregnant! I wish!!! No, I'm just sick. After taking Benadryl last night, I woke up late this morning. I didn't have time to even put on my eyeliner. Maybe, that's why everyone was so concerned about me. I guess I just looked awful!!! Either way, it means so much that others care! It's nice to know I'm loved!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Streams 3
Psalm 1:1-3 (New International Version)
2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD, 3 He is like a tree planted by streams of water, I know if I seek God and store his word in my heart, God will delight in me, and I will yield fruit in God's time. More importantly, everything I do will prosper! 1 Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.
and on his law he meditates day and night.
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.
7Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. God wants to bless you through his word. 13Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." 38Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him." Allow God's word to flow from you. Speak God's word over your life everyday. Be a blessing to others by telling them God's word. I do not like to elaborate too much about what God's scriptures mean to me because I know God's scriptures can mean something totally different to you. Pray that God will write these words in your heart and speak new meaning to you, restore you, bless you, and allow you to be a blessing to others. Love, Kim I love this new song by The Heat. Even when I go through God's storms, I am washed by the water! "Washed by the Water" ~ The Heat http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onLnSiXQmDg This is the best video I could find.In your search for answers, I want to remind you to read God's word. I've said this before, but I want to say it again. There are so many stories on the Internet that will cause you to feel anxiety. Just remember God has his own story for you.
1 Peter 5:7 (New International Version)
John 4:13-14 (New International Version)
So, guard your heart. Be careful who you listen to and what you read during this fragile time in your life. Do "not walk in the counsel of the wicked" (Psalm 1:1).John 7:38 (New International Version)
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Fruit 2
http://www.natashawescoat.com/
John 15:1-5 (New International Version)
The Vine and the Branches
1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. 3You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
7If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. Of course, I will remain in God. How rewarding it is to know that God is pruning me to make me even more fruitful. Sometimes, I don't even care about how many children I will have. I'm like, "God give me as many as you want to give me." Then, I watch 18 Kids and Counting, and reality sets in a little. Don't get me wrong; I actually do like the Duggars! If I'm living in God, I know he is always with me! Warning: This video is emotional. "Always" ~ Building 429John 15:7 (New International Version)
Friday, April 10, 2009
Oak Trees 1
Last year on a trip to Long Beach, Mississippi, I began to notice all the beautiful oak trees along the way. My fascination grew, and I continued to see beautiful pictures of oak trees when I went shopping throughout the summer. Now, I can identify many trees because I have learned a lot about trees through my curiosity. Over this last year, God has shown me many scriptures about trees. The scriptures about how trees bear fruit have really been a blessing to me. I'm going to begin sharing them with you over the next few weeks.
Jeremiah 17:8 (New International Version)
8 He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit."
"Never fails to bear fruit!" God led me to this verse a few months ago. It has been such a blessing to me. I know God knows all of my tomorrows. Even last summer when I became totally amazed by all the beautiful oak trees, God knew he was going to use them to bless my life.
I heard this song a few weeks ago. Then, I found this video. I knew God wanted me to share this as soon as I saw it.
"Yet I Will" ~ Vineyard Music
Thursday, April 9, 2009
In God's Time
Psalm 27:14 (New King James Version)
14 Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!
Psalm 33:20 (New King James Version)
Psalm 27:14 (New King James Version)
14 Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!
20 Our soul waits for the LORD; 5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, A wonderful, beautiful friend told me about this song today. It's the message I needed to hear. As Jamie and I begin this process all over again, I need to trust that God will have everything work in his time.
He is our help and our shield.Psalm 130:5 (New King James Version)
And in His word I do hope.Isaiah 30:18 (New King James Version)
God Will Be Gracious
18 Therefore the LORD will wait, that He may be gracious to you;
And therefore He will be exalted, that He may have mercy on you.
For the LORD is a God of justice;
Blessed are all those who wait for Him.
So, here's what I'm going to do in the meantime! I love this song!
"While I'm Waiting" ~ John Waller
Again, I love how his arms are open at the end of the song!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Here I Am
"Here I Am" ~ Downhere
Sometimes it comes in the Spirit's breeze
You reach for the deepest hope in me
And call out for the things of eternity
But I'm a man, of dust and stains,
You move in me, so I can say
Chorus
Here I am, Lord send me
All of my life, I make an offering,
Here I am, Lord send me
Somehow my story is a part of Your plan,
Here I am
When setbacks and failures, and upset plans
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands
Are You not the closest when it's hardest to stand
I know that You will finish what You began
And these broken parts You will redeem
Become the song that I can sing
Chorus
Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness
And the fear that I'll fail You in the end
In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces,
I can't put this together but You can
Chorus
Here I Am, all my life an offering to You, to You
Somehow my story is a part of Your plan
Here I am
Busy and Needing Help
I've been very busy. I went to a Natalie Grant concert last Thursday, helped my husband prepare for an interview on Friday, turned in a 110 page project on Saturday, cleaned all day Sunday, hosted girls' night at my house Monday, and went to sleep as soon as I got home yesterday. Furthermore, I know many people who are struggling right now and seeking help.
I've shared this book below before. While going through it, I found this scripture.
Proverbs 11:14 (The Message)
14 Without good direction, people lose their way;
the more wise counsel you follow, the better your chances.
It's been over three months, and there are times when I still have questions. So, I want you to know it's okay to seek council from your friends and family. God has them in your life for a reason.
I am very thankful for everyone who has blessed me along this path.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Laminin
Colossians 1:3-8 (New International Version)
Thanksgiving and Prayer
3We always thank God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, when we pray for you, 4because we have heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and of the love you have for all the saints—5the faith and love that spring from the hope that is stored up for you in heaven and that you have already heard about in the word of truth, the gospel 6that has come to you. All over the world this gospel is bearing fruit and growing, just as it has been doing among you since the day you heard it and understood God's grace in all its truth. 7You learned it from Epaphras, our dear fellow servant, who is a faithful minister of Christ on our behalf, 8and who also told us of your love in the Spirit.Colossians 1:17 (New International Version)
17He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.
Kelly, from Kelly's Korner, posted this video today. I just had to post it for mothers like me. God made you in his image. This video defines what that means!
Louie Giglio - Laminin
"Sweetly Broken" ~ Jeremy Riddle
Monday, March 30, 2009
Waiting
Philippians 4:6 (New International Version)
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
This is a hard one! It's so hard for me not to be anxious! I'm a very anxious person. Yet, I do believe it's okay to rest in my faith that everything will be better. Does that make sense?
"Brighter Days" ~ Leeland
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Fgur2OSQhY
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Indescribable
Psalm 147:3-4 (New King James Version)
3 He heals the brokenhearted
And binds up their wounds.
4 He counts the number of the stars;
He calls them all by name.
Shortly after the loss of my baby, a precious friend prayed for me and reminded me of this verse.
On a cute yellow card she wrote the following:
"If God names all of the stars, He has a name for your unborn child and is calling him/her by that name now."
Her perspective brought me so much comfort.
One day I wll see my baby again in Heaven. It will be indescribable!
"Indescribable" ~ Chris Tomlin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PTvr755V8s&feature=related
God is With You
Psalm 22:24-31 (New Century Version)
24 He does not ignore those in trouble.
He doesn't hide from them
but listens when they call out to him.
25 Lord, I praise you in the great meeting of your people;
these worshipers will see me do what I promised.
26 Poor people will eat until they are full;
those who look to the Lord will praise him.
May your hearts live forever!
27 People everywhere will remember
and will turn to the Lord.
All the families of the nations
will worship him
28 because the Lord is King,
and he rules the nations.
29 All the powerful people on earth will eat and worship.
Everyone will bow down to him,
all who will one day die.
30 The people in the future will serve him;
they will always be told about the Lord.
31 They will tell that he does what is right.
People who are not yet born
will hear what God has done.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Going Public
I decided to post this website on my Facebook account today. I've been very nervous about making this decision for weeks. I want God to use me through my blog to help others, but my story is also very personal. On the other hand, how will anyone know about my blog if I never share it? My prayer is that my blog will only be used to bless others who need to be blessed. If you know of someone who has had a miscarriage and you feel comfortable sharing my website, tell them about it.
"Use Me" ~ Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir
Praise
God wants us to give Him praise at all times because He knows what's best for us. He has a plan.
Praising God for the things He has done has always restored me during times of pain. It's reminded me to be thankful for everything I do have. I might not have a baby now, but I have a God who loves me and knows each and every desire of my heart!
It's through my praise that "My Arms are Open."
Jeremiah 33:11 (New International Version)
11 the sounds of joy and gladness, the voices of bride and bridegroom, and the voices of those who bring thank offerings to the house of the LORD, saying,
"Give thanks to the LORD Almighty,
for the LORD is good;
his love endures forever."
For I will restore the fortunes of the land as they were before,' says the LORD.
Psalm 7:17 (New International Version)
17 I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness
and will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High.
11 Yours, O LORD, is the greatness and the power 12 Wealth and honor come from you; 13 Now, our God, we give you thanks, 1 Chronicles 29:11-13 (New International Version)
and the glory and the majesty and the splendor,
for everything in heaven and earth is yours.
Yours, O LORD, is the kingdom;
you are exalted as head over all.
you are the ruler of all things.
In your hands are strength and power
to exalt and give strength to all.
and praise your glorious name.
Last fall, I downloaded this song. It's great!
"I Never Lost My Praise" - Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir
New Doors
Seven years ago when Jamie and I decided to move five hours away for him to go back to school, I prayed about the decision for weeks. I knew we would be leaving everything and going to a new place where we had very few connections. Well, Jamie had a few connections, but I had none. Since I knew I would be providing the income for our financial needs, I knew God would have to intervene!
Jamie finally felt that God really did want us to move, but I still needed God's confirmation. It was this song that sealed the deal for me after weeks of praying.
"Beyond the Open Door"
God did bless us. The day we arrived, I got a call that I had a job! That's God!!! Jamie graduated last May, and God provided for ALL of our needs! That's God!!!
Don't be afraid to take risks that you feel the Holy Spirit leading you to take. Pray about it, pray for confirmation, and get advice from Christian people around you.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Joy
Psalm 16:11 (New International Version)
11 You have made known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Perfect Peace
Isaiah 26:3 (New International Version)
3 You will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in you.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Beautiful Son
Romans 8:18-27 (New International Version)
18I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. 20For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
22We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. 24For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? 25But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. 27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.
Joann Rosario "Beautiful Son"
I downloaded this song to a "Christmas" CD before I knew I was pregnant. I didn't pack away this CD when I put away all of my Christmas items.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Joy for Others
I found out today that another one of my friends is pregnant. My family has known this for awhile, but they didn't tell me because they wanted to protect me. I didn't understand why they would think I would be upset because I honestly am very happy for the couple. I know many couples who are trying to get pregnant and many couples who had to try for a long time (years) before they conceived. I want nothing but joy and happiness for every single lady who becomes pregnant. I want to celebrate every moment with my friends screaming with extreme excitement, praising Jesus, and just talking about all the days to come. I want to pray for their babies to be healthy and happy! :) Praying for others has really helped me since the loss of my baby.
I don't want any of my friends to be weary of telling me they are pregnant because I want to be apart of the excitement. I know God is a good God and He has me in the center of His will. I know He will take care of me and bless me beyond measure. I don't know how or when, but I don't want to spoil the surprise either.
Yes, your pain is real. Yes, you need to mourn. Yes, it's hard to move on.
But...
Yes, your God loves you. Yes, he's going to bless you in a way you NEVER imagined. Yes, he chose you because he wants to use you. Yes, you can look forward to the days to come. Yes, you can continue to look at baby clothes because it's the desire of your heart to have babies again, and God knows and cares about the desires of your heart. Yes, you can hold a baby and cry with happiness because the baby is so perfect. Yes, you can be happy because you have Faith larger than a mustard seed that God is going to take care of you and use you mightily to bless others and be blessed!!!
God has a story just for you, and it is so beautifully written!
Here are a few versus that have really blessed me lately.
Matthew 7:7-8 (New International Version)
7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
Matthew 21:22 (New International Version)
22If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."
Mark 11:24 (New International Version)
24Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
Jonah 2:2 (New International Version)
2 He said:
"In my distress I called to the LORD,
and he answered me.
From the depths of the grave I called for help,
and you listened to my cry.
God is so good all the time!!!
"God is Good"
Here are two versions of this song. I love both of them!
Regina Belle (I have this downloaded. It's so easy to sing.)
Don Moen
This version comes with a unique video. It's got some cute pictures, but it has some scary ones too.
Monday, March 9, 2009
I found it!
I've looked for this song for a couple of months. I could only remember a few words, and I sang them over and over. Well, I have finally found it. I'm so excited I can finish the sentences with the correct words.
The melody of this song blessed me so much when I needed to relax in God's presence. Whenever I was stressed, I caught myself humming the sweet melody.
Enjoy!
"All Who Are Thirsty"
Also, I love how his "arms are open" at the end of the video.
I got this text message from my husband today!
"March 9, 1996, changed my life forever! I love you!"
He's the BEST! That was the night of our first date.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
More on Miracles
Hebrews 2:4 (Amplified Bible)
4[Besides this evidence] it was also established and plainly endorsed by God, Who showed His approval of it by signs and wonders and various miraculous manifestations of [His] power and by imparting the gifts of the Holy Spirit [to the believers] according to His own will.
"One Little Miracle" Hawk Nelson
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Held
Ruth 3:11 (New International Reader's Version)
11 Dear woman, don't be afraid. I'll do for you everything you ask. All of the people of my town know that you are a noble woman.
When my father passed away, I didn't understand how I seemed to be holding it together. Then, I realized it was really God holding me together thanks to the many prayers being prayed over me and my family. The song below emphasizes how God and prayer can pull you through tough times.
"Held" by Natalie Grant (This song is emotional.)
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Miracles
Numbers 14:11 (New International Version)
11 The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people treat me with contempt? How long will they refuse to believe in me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them?
God's miracles are all around us. If you're not a Christian, I pray God completely reveals himself to you today.
4-8-09 I was thinking about this song today. I remember when I watched it in March, and I wondered why it has the phrase, "It's hard to kill." Well, this is the message every pregnant teenage mother needs to hear. Times will be hard with a baby, but it's not right to have an abortion.
My House Will Be a House of Praise
Psalm 118:15 (New International Reader's Version)
15 Shouts of joy ring out in the tents of godly people.
They praise him for his help in battle.
They shout, "The Lord's powerful right hand has done mighty things!
Dear Jesus,
Let shouts of joy always ring out from my home. May I always be thankful.
Amen
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Dear Jesus
1 John 5:14-15 (New International Version)
14This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.
Dear Jesus,
Thank you for my wonderful baby in heaven. I can't wait to see him or her one day. I trust that everything works according to Your will. Help me to be everything you want me to be during this time. As for me and my husband, I humbly cry out to you to ask that you bless us with another child. This is the desire of our hearts. Help us to be the parents you want us to be. We love you.
Amen
Sunday, March 1, 2009
'Tis So Sweet
My husband has been a wonderful blessing to me during this time. Every night, he has prayed over our family and prayed for us to have "happy, healthy babies!"
"'Tis So Sweet to Trust in God" ~ Casting Crowns
Bless Others and Be Blessed
A few years ago, my close friend, Stacie, lost her dad. Stacie and I share the grief of losing a father, and we often just talk about our dads because we both need to remember how blessed we were to have Godly fathers.
Well, I, for some reason, had never heard of Chris Rice until Stacie's dad's funeral. I fell in love with it immediately. To me, there's a clear message. I want to "Let My Little Light Shine" no matter what circumstance or trial God puts in my path. I've been singing that song since I was little. Why would I let a trial, God put in my path for a reason, stop me from praising God and giving Him thanks for every moment of my life that I have had and that I will have in the future? I know that ALL things work for God's glory!
During this difficult time, I have been blessed the most when I have had opportunities to bless others. That's what this song is about. Go light your world! :)
Faith Pleases God
Hebrews 11:6 (New International Version)
6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Beautiful
Now that I have had the opportunity to feel the extreme amount of joyous love a mother has for her child, I can't help but daydream about the days to come.
I want to give my child the world -EVERYTHING! At the same time, I want a healthy and wise child.
Listen to the beauty found in the words of the song "I Wish" by Heather Headley.
Mom's Wisdom
Isaiah 26:3 (New International Version)
3 You will keep in perfect peace
him whose mind is steadfast,
because he trusts in you.
My mom has reminded me of this scripture a few times lately. When I'm stressed, she reminds me to trust in God and He will give me peace.
It does take a while to relax sometimes, but usually a few hours later I'm doing much better.
If peace is what you need, trust is what you have to give.
Kim
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Souled Out
It feels wonderful to serve the Lord and know that he is all I want and need.
I love this song too! It kind of makes me happy!!! : )
Trust
Proverbs 3:5-8 (New International Version)
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD and shun evil.
8 This will bring health to your body
and nourishment to your bones.
Fear
Isaiah 41:10 (New International Version)
10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Fear is not of God. When you are fearful, it's time to pray and relax. Go have your prayer time, but then try to do something that relaxes you. I like to find a good TV show to watch or take a long, hot bath.
I love the song "Who Am I" by Casting Crowns. Check it out.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Reservations
One of my reservations about this blog is my concern about what moms will think who have been through this process many times, and they still haven't had a child.
First, I do consider you a mom. You have a child or children in Heaven. You need to know that!
Second, do not give up.
Sarah had Isaac (Genesis 21), Rebekah had Esau and Jacob (Genesis 25: 19-26), Leah had Reuben, Simeon, Levi, and Judah (Genesis 29: 31-35), and Hannah had Samuel (1 Samuel 1: 12-20), and Elizabeth had John the Baptist (Luke 1: 5-25).
2 Chronicles 15:7 (New International Version)
7 But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded."
Third, do not be bitter. God had this happen for a reason. Being bitter is wasting time. You MUST ask God to guide you and show you what to do. God set you up for an INCREDIBLE story. You have a choice: be bitter or be used mightily by God.
Hebrews 12:15 (New International Version)
15See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.
This week, you should read Psalm 91. Let God speak to you through these scriptures.
"Waging War": I love this song by CeCe Winans. It's uplifting and strengthens my trust in God.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Empty Arms by Pam Vredevelt
Empty Arms by Pam Vredevelt
I didn't love this book at first, but now I love it. Every time I reread it, I feel comfort again.
For me, I had to make this book my own. I read it like a textbook at first. Then, I skimmed it for awhile. A few weeks later, I started adding many scriptures to it on the sides and in open spaces. Many of the scriptures I added to this book are on this blog.
I decided that I would give the book to the next person I knew going through this difficult time. I never want this to happen to anyone, but I know it happens, and I know it happens often. After adding to the book, I realized that it was a GREAT book. However, I started thinking there had to be a way to bless more than one person. After discovering many blogs on the Internet, I decided to make my own blog to share my favorite scriptures with others that got me through this difficult time.
Yet, the title never made me comfortable. So, I like to refer to it as my "Open Arms" book. Thus, I named this blog "My Arms are Open." This means my arms are open to God's plan for my life.
I love you Jesus!
Kim
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